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2011-10-22T10:33:00.002+08:00

If I had these for my breakfast, it will be super wonderful. The food looks so cute.

Working at 11am today, super shag. Posting just before I go. For the first time of so many months I decided to be late a bit :x. Simply just too tired to walk or move my butt off the chair because I feel ultra lazy today!

Uploaded the photos taken by Daniel @ Aaron birthday, they are all my boyfriend's friends anw. :)

Seems like im acting cute to my bf, but I AM JUST TALKING. - Credits goes to Daniel ! :@

He just didnt make me look that fat, thanks god. !

2011-10-21T01:19:00.001+08:00

Longest RJ in Sem 1.2 :)

I hate the modules I have to take in 1.2 :( .

Firstly there is Maths and next there's Communication practice, these 2 bores me out.

I've never liked Maths in my life, but it gives me the greatest sense of satisfaction if I did well:)

Communication prac is shit :( , boring boring boring! Have to endure for like 12problems more, aww.

2011-10-09T22:44:00.002+08:00

I wanna hold your hands, for now and for ever :).

Went chalet with bby ytd and I got drunk ._. lmaos hahaha . Sorry that I gave you so much nonsense :( ! (L)..

Happy birthday PETE :)
& Mingfen, let's get our beer somedays hehehe! :p

There a lot of nice clothes that I might like on tumblr, I wonder if Singapore would have all these! :( I like korean fashion, seems so nice :) hehehehe! Think my cny clothes I should get from Gmarket :D. WAHAHAHA... Below are a few clothes that I will like ...... Tell me if you found any of these in SG , cuz I hate waiting :(!!

2011-10-05T23:31:00.004+08:00

bby ♥ :D

First time my mom likes the guy I brings home :) . haha, first time hearing her say that the guy is good, normally she will be angry or unhappy whenever i bought any guy back to just take my stuffs and go off, not even stay for a few minutes.. I don't know how he make my mom have that good impression of him :P ... Got together just like yesterday 041011? haha :3.

First day of school is kinda sucky -.-" ... It's like, I want to talk but everybody seems so unfriendly and the class is extremely quiet. imagine you are from a super noisy class before and now your class is as quiet as the HOSPITAL.. I hope it will be like E35F , I will love my class then :). Hope I will get to find some new good friends :) ..

Looking forward to pete's birthday, got a weekend off from work :) ...Finally I get to rest ^_^ ..

I thought that it would not be approved till the stupid htc guy told me that his friend got deployed to Nex mall this week.

Shouldn't go Gmarket often now! :( I will get bloody tempted! :'(

2011-09-21T16:08:00.002+08:00

http://list.gmarket.com.sg/item/KOSDAQSHOP-MAKE-UP-BRUSH-SET-9/400993475?search_keyword=makeup+brushes

Found just what I need :) . Since almost all makeup tutorials I've watched uses Mac's eye shadow, so I might give it a try next month after I get my pay ;) ..

Need to pack my room and my cosmetics soon cause they are all over the places. :( .

Maybe tomorrow if I had nothing on ;).

Sep shopping spree

2011-09-20T00:09:00.005+08:00

What I've bought from G-market again. :) Satisfied because I spend less than $70. :)
In Singapore, If i bought all these it would have cost me even more, however I don't know if it's a good buy till the stuffs came in.
Because the last time I bought from G-market (my items last time), I end up only liking 1 item out of the 3 I've bought which sucks! My $20+ flew~~~ . :\

Hopefully it will come in before this week ends. So I can go out looking good next week and when school reopen ~ :D. I think thats all my shopping for this month till next month's pay came in ^^! I understand my cousin now, she shops at G-market even more than me.

Tomorrow I am going to do hair treatment for my awful hair which I hope will look better by tomorrow. I am going to search for hairstyles to cut too. haha! Busy night ~~~ After this I am going to watch my drama , weeeeeeee~~~~~ . Spent my night and money wisely :) .

2011-09-19T10:24:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARON :D . !!

Hope you enjoy the kbox session , though I got really ....... sot after on haha! . :)

@DORA PANDA - DONT WANT TAKE PHOTO WITH ME :@ . Sit so far for what?!

2011-09-19T00:39:00.002+08:00

aurora borealis.

To watch this, it is a must. I will earn my money to go Alaska for this one day.

2011-09-19T00:28:00.000+08:00

2011-09-17T00:37:00.002+08:00

Nice ! (Y) . Shopping spree soon again :) weeee~~~~~~`

Meeting panda & sharon soon this week :) .

I have been sick for almost 1week+ now, feel super horrible yet I hated the taste of the medicine and frankly speaking I did not take medicine frequently. I just did it whenever I like, and I grew some ulcers due to my sleeping problem. Bodyclock, Y U CHANGE AGAIN. I thought it was alright but it is getting worse now. Every holiday my bodyclock changes and it took me like decades to get use to new bodyclock timing when school reopen.

Speaking of school reopen. My school will be reopening at 5th oct while others are still having holidays. Stupid school! & my results will be out on the 23rd and I don't know if I can login to my school website. I shall try logging in again tomorrow morning when I get up. My eyes are barely opening o_o ~ .

And also not to forget, I came across this hair tutorial video and I think the hairstyle is nice and is what I am looking for. :) . I love her tutorial and her diet plans, which is quite effective but I skip meals sometimes though.

I am going to continue my drama (I am watching 神话) till that episode ends then im off to bed ^_^...

Goodnights!

2011-09-05T23:49:00.002+08:00

One of the few photos I've taken when I went out with Huilin & Emi :D
Best people to hang out with (: ... Because , they always make me happy !! :D
Friends who is just with you because who you are :) ..
They add something called happiness in my life ^_^!

2011-09-03T04:18:00.004+08:00

I don't know what am I doing online at 4.19am and I am not sleeping, I can't seems to :( .
Got very addicted to the drama :P hehehe. I swear it's darn nice , 醉後決定愛上你 !
I got to know about this show when I was working at starhub, thought it was an interesting show that I quickly finished my heartstrings to watch 醉後決定愛上你 :) .

I can't bear to let myself get hurt anymore.
.....
I will find a better guy.
.....
I am good to move on now.
.....
:)

Songs to intro :

2011-09-01T01:09:00.002+08:00

I am back to blogger :) . No matter what blogging sites I tried, blogger is still the best. Therefore I transfered my posts in my live journal back to blogger ^_^~

Was quite happy how my life was right now, so there's nothing much to complain.
Going to sleep soon , blog again another day :D

& a song to share :

2011-08-28T01:00:00.000+08:00

Monday is the last module exam ;D !! I don't intend to study because it is PROGRAMMING and i hate it as much as i hate tomatoes :( ! I can never understand programming nor can i think like a python, it's totally nonsensical to me :3... What is new media? NO KICK :D , IT'S ALREADY DONE , FINISHED ! <3
Left with programming danggling in my Timetable, AFTER MONADY IT WILL BE GONE ^^! Hope i pass my science, if not i got to retake T.T - Science sucks and i hate it too~ Went out to study with Wendy, XS and TEE SOON KIAT. It seems like I'm playing and not studying. New media no kick so I didn't study for the module :P Just looked through programming, at least i bother. Coming to RP is FUNNNNN :) !! I hope my next sem class would be fun like E35F too ! :D
I thought working at NEX would be boring, in the end i made friends there and it was actually alright :) But i still miss bishan :(!

2011-08-21T00:58:00.000+08:00

You really forgot everything
When I see your welcoming face
I start to feel a little hurt
Because of a wound that can’t heal itself

My tears won’t flow
Breaking up wasn’t even a big deal
Because our relationship is worthless

There’s no such thing as a clean break
If I knew this, I would’ve cried it all out then
By then you were done with me
A story only I didn’t know

It wasn’t love
It was just time spent next to you
Now I think I know what it feels like to be hurt
Why did you have to be sorry?

Maybe I was too exited
You were anticipating when you could leave
How amusing was it for you?

There’s no such thing as a clean break
If I knew this, I would’ve cried it all out then
By then you were done with me
A story only I didn’t know

2011-08-13T00:57:00.001+08:00

I am bored of how my life is now. Need something life-changing to happen very soon. For the whole of this year, I've been alone, I've not played enough and I feel that my expenses is increasing with Kbox and Club. Clubbing is not really appealing to me already, I've overdone it till it became boring and every Friday go Zirca it's really mundane like every Friday night where I would be going will be Zirca and not anywhere else which is more fun. It's like a boring routine, listening to the same music over and over again which freaking bores me out. Now I am really hoping I can find a boyfriend so that there's someone I can play with and go out with and feel happy with :( .

2011-08-13T00:57:00.000+08:00

2nd last module of the sem ! Going to change class D: . I don't feel like changing. Stupid RP D: Going to work later @ Bishan Starhub outlet , a little bit scared because I had no experience in selling phones :( . What I sell were robinsons bedsheets(KingKoil) , D-link routers and laptops :( .

2011-08-10T00:56:00.000+08:00

Noon - Before going out and Night Time - Just Reached Home The fireworks for National Day this year were darn fantastic as compared to past years. I think it's the nicest and quite unique as compared to past years. How I wish I have enough $ to book MBS :( ! Surely worth the money spent for that moment ><! Happy 46th Birthday, Singapore! :D Before going out - Makeup stays, reached home - makeup faded. Somehow I hate my eyeliner :( ! Not the one I drew my upper eyelids but the one where I drew near my waterline, it smudge and fade easily! >:\ . The brand of it is always being advertise on TV but after using this I will NOT buy it ever again. However I will buy my cosmetics from ETUDE HOUSE :) !!! <3

Clothes clothes clothes ! :D I NEED MOREEEEE

2011-08-08T00:54:00.000+08:00

I got a new job ! That's to sell blackberry phone , although I do not know when I will be working yet but is something mid of this month , i suppose? . The pay is darn good hahaha, the main reason for why am i taking up this job. :P Somehow "sales" I will be more willing to work rather than restaurant work. Restaurant I will be dead by the end of the day and I won't last for a month , what's more many many months to come.

" I miss you " -

& TOMORROW'S ONWARD TILL 15AUG IS THE LAST WEEK OF SEM 1 :O No more E35F :(

2011-08-05T00:53:00.000+08:00

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- What I've bought : I've bought 3 items & let's hope it will arrive soon. For the dress in the last picture it will probably reach me on 12th aug +/- :) As for the other 2 the buyer have not answered to the request yet. As for the rings , I am still considering as it is very cheap as compared to shops in Singapore. So it's worth it. If I've spent 30bucks+ to try buying from Gmarket and it actually did not bluff me then I will continue buying from the site :) . P.S = READ THE REVIEW FIRST ! Look. Only a day after I bought the dress in the last photo :) ! :D

2011-07-21T00:51:00.000+08:00

Taken in class on Wednesday, it's been long ever since i took any photos with my classmates. Been a slacker recently and did not contribute much that explains my grades falling and becoming worse :( . Gotta buck up my year1 sem1 grades with the remaining days in E35F. Seriously I've got no feel to change class, because I've awesome classmates :D. I have fear of changing class because it will be a different environment without familiar people, I don't like to communicate with unknown people! What if I can't get along? What if I got left out? It's still the safest to stay in my comfort zone. However I don't think the school will allow our class to stay and change only in year 2 because of the different courses everyone is in. Honestly I got bored of going to school doing the same things everyday, same routine. [ Meeting 1 (PDT) -> Meeting 2 (worksheet) -> Meeting 3(presentation) ; After School (Reflection Journal)] RJ is the worst nightmare! I feel like going back to secondary school where I do different things everyday. I am sick of using computer, there's nothing much for me to surf on the net. I've seen it, used it in class because class is SO BORING! I miss Zhonghua Secondary and my friends :( !!! No wonder seniors said " You will start to miss secondary school when you stepped into poly/JC "

I am in need of contact lens and I went to honeycolor.com to purchase GEO Nudy Brown lens which is able to last a year , 38% water content, 14.5mm as it's diameter. Saw it on website like thousands of years ago, but did not buy. Finally I decided to pay $30.99 for a pair of lens which will last me a year , as compared to a normal retail shop in singapore $30.99 for a pair of lens would only last you 1month if you're lucky and if you are not it will only last you 3weeks +. So therefore, NO HARM TRYING :)!!

I don't know if I should club tomorrow or on saturday :O

2011-07-17T16:24:00.002+08:00

In this case, positivity doesn't work anymore.

The last blog post is when I just entered RP , now 1st sem is ending [ left with 4weeks ] . I'm just too lazy to do anything about my blog and it went dead.. When I'm editing my template it just feels like I'm doing one of my module called New Media ._. that's why I took super long to finish editing the codings. Design wise it looks kinda sucky :( !

I definitely miss my secondary school life now. Now I don't see my friends often, and some even lost contacts. The closer you are with the person in secondary school, now you don't even contact them anymore. However you are in contact with people who helped, encouraged you to persevere for 'O' level .

& I do not have a boyfriend for quite sometime. It's not always, I went out with this guy and it means that he's my boyfriend. Somehow after getting to know a few guys for awhile, I will think that this guy is sensible, etcs , or when the hidden characteristics shown up I will think that this guy is so unpredictable, etcs.. So I don't really know. This kind of thing wait till UT3 is over then say, don't want to be affected haha!

2011-04-24T02:21:00.000+08:00

Studying in my new school now :)

But their website is fucked up that I can't even login to Leo at home-.- I only can do that in school -'- .

2011-04-11T20:24:00.004+08:00

Date : 6 April 2011

Zirca-Rebel.

Had breezer , Icecream before entering club woo-hoo ~

With Alyssa, James and Mak. Met the rest in Zirca :) .

Was fucking bored that day, went to Rebel only for awhile and they don't want to go because it's effin' packed :( . So I was bored the whole while and I don't really like neat vodkaa, so yucky but got forced :\ . 2am I told them I want to go home but they asked me to wait so I waited, so effing bored.. Kept smsing stupig in the club , his reply was SUPER DUPER SUPER DUPER SLOW!.

Date : 8 April 2011

Zirca event - Mad Thrills : One year of Anarchy.

With Stupig, Alyssa, James, Mak, Terrence, Ivan, Shengyang, Carolette, Kelvin, Daniel, Kenny, etcs....

Although I went in through Zirca's guestlist but I kept staying at Rebel which I think it's better than Zirca. I don't really like housemusic, can't be blamed :( . I was spammed by Terrence and Kelvin while I was with Kenny, I spammed stupig because I can't find him. So I was spammed the entire night, be it by phone calls or messages.

Subway after club :) . Didn't really spend much this few time because I didn't take cab :D

Date : 9 April 2011

Powerhouse.

With Trance, Nigel, Andy, Dora, Kenny, Gary and Long Ting. Met up with Benjamin, Kelvin, Nigel, one of Yonghui's friend I can't remember her name.

Definitely one of the worst night ever! Entered the dance floor and there's people fighting right infront of me, so people infront stepped back and pushed everyone backwards. Fuck it's darn squeezy! There's no guestlist that night so I have to queue like darn freakin' long and it's darn freakin' hot ! I totally died after the club, because I can't take it. I was darn tired and my toe area got a super big bubble that I showed Stupig in the morning :( ...

Date : 11 April 2011

Went to find Stupig after sleeping for like half an hour or so. Freakin' tired, at first I don't feel anything till the time reaches 1pm. I really feel like dying on my bed and never get up.

He's tired too and he asked me to meet him in the morning for breakfast LOL! But breakfast was nice :) hehehehehe, eaten something that I didn't ate for super long~ (Y) I likey :D~

2011-04-06T16:30:00.002+08:00

I love my potato chips :) . Although this is fairprice's potato chips but it taste nice hehehe.

My family are vegetarian , I'm the exception because I don't want to be a part of them.

So they only can eat original flavours :( . Original taste nice too ^^" hehehehehe!

However I should stop eating it because I'm getting fatter :(

It wrote " Transfats free " but I am sure there's plenty of fats contained in it D: .

I am going out riao , update tomorrow when I am up teeheehee..

Double post on the same date, actually I posted it last night hehehe :P

2011-04-06T05:26:00.001+08:00

# The reality.

He will never fall for me.

2011-04-01T02:27:00.002+08:00

I wish I can too.

Giving up soon. I don't know what should I do anymore.

2011-03-29T01:53:00.004+08:00

Zirca , 23rd March.

I personally think I looked the best in the last photo out of so many photos LOL!

I looked kinda fat in others , wlao :( ~ Should just stop eating chicken and turn vegetarian instead! However I wasn't very happy at the event too ~_~ .

Went to butterfactory few days back too, but I don't like the way I looked in the photos :( .

Didn't get to drink that much that day too, so I don't feel high or whatsoever. Sian ttm ~

Thinking of going to lamborgini ladies night but I go to work on Thurs :( !!!!!!!!!!!!!! wlao!

Seriously I think I am enjoying myself too much now haha. I will be missing everything out aft school reopen I think. Won't be going to club or go anywhere to drink on weekdays anymore. Weekends I think I'd be working, sounds busy sial haha!

Went to school today to collect my cert :) .

I think only my LCCI cert and my Chinese result looked good, the others can't be seen.

Hehe surprisingly I got an Distinction for my LCCI ~ I'm so happy !

That proves that if I learn everything from the scratch , I CAN DO IT !!!! :D

2011-03-28T00:25:00.003+08:00

I need a boy.

Slept for only 3hours yesterday, feels really tired and bored at Robinsons.

It's a Sunday and there's hardly anybody walking around. I've no one to talk to that makes me super uneasy. No matter where I go, I talk.

I feel like as if I've strike lottery today. 11.11pm wish really do work huh? haha!

Half of a wish I've wished for, came quite true but not totally. :)

I hope it will be all true soon :) .

My manager like cute only, so early booked me for so many weeks haha!
I'm darn effing happy. Sales time is coming , NO MORE empty level 5, NO MORE stoning at counter, NO MORE disturbing people, NO MORE nonsense crazy schedule * it will be insane, NO MORE laughing at crystal and helen *aww :( ... etcs

IU - I need a boy

Not one that speaks without thinking or a little child, but one that will embrace me yeah

Not a boy that plays around when he's bored, but one that will only love me

Even if he stays still and girls hand him their phone

The kind of boy that will proudly take out and show my picture

Boy I need a boy, good no matter what he does and a good body too

BOY I NEED A BOY BABY I NEED YOU

BOY YOU NEED ME TOO

Boy I need a boy, baby I need you

Boy you need me too

A kind of boy that looks better in a v-neck than in a regular shirt

A boy that will make kimchi fried rice for me because I enjoy eating it

Uhu, a boy who can be cute at times even when he's old

I like that kind of boy

A boy that acts manly but knows how to be delicate

Even if he acts cool in front of others but when we're alone

Boy I need a boy, good no matter what he does and a good body too

BOY I NEED A BOY BABY I NEED YOU

BOY YOU NEED ME TOO

Boy I need a boy, baby I need you

Boy you need me too

Make my heart race again

Make me able to create sweet songs again

You know, it's not about money or anything, you're the person I want to give my heart to

I NEED A BOY

HMM YEAH YEAH

I need a boy

Hmm, yeah yeah

BOY I LIKE YOU GOTTA MAKE YOU MINE

IMMA TREAT YOU RIGHT BABY

Boy I like you, gotta make you mine

Imma treat you right, baby

Boy I need a boy, good no matter what he does and a good body too

BOY I NEED A BOY BABY I NEED YOU

BOY YOU NEED ME TOO

Boy I need a boy, baby I need you

Boy you need me too

BOY I NEED A BOY YEAH

Boy I need a boy, yeah

Are you listening to me?

BABY I NEED YOU

BOY YOU NEED ME TOO

Baby I need you

Boy you need me too

BOY I NEED A BOY

Boy I need a boy

2011-03-26T13:06:00.000+08:00

2011-03-26T04:03:00.002+08:00

It's 4am and I got to wake up at 10am later on to prepare for Jolyn's birthday outing :)

Although it's a advance celebration , still Happy birthday girl :D , Happy sweet 16~

This reminds me of myself at that age, I was fucking happy that I actually get to watch NC16 legally HAHA! It sounds stupid but I am a movie-freak, so I've got the advantage and I went to watch a NC 16 show on my birthday itself :) *proudgirl93 at that time haha!

Looking forward to RP's orientation which is coming soon. Hope I get to have nice people in my class and nice people to work with in class :). I don't know why, but I wish school will start soon to kill my time. I don't mind doing RJ everyday, I don't mind revising everyday after class, I don't mind to stay in the school library after class, I don't mind meeting new people in school, I don't mind drinking pretty in pink hehehehe! It's far better than me sitting at home doing nothing or going out spending money on useless stuffs. Maybe sitting down, reading something or chilling out with friends after class will be nice.. That's life!

& weekend I can work to cover my own expenses. :) I'd like to be busy and relax at times.

It sounds good, I shall try it out in April to see how it goes. I hope the choices I made in school this time round, I wouldn't regret anything. Though nothing is perfect, I will work hard to make it seems perfect with little flaws. I want to go to NUS , Ngee Ann Poly is impossible now but by working hard in RP ... I might have the slight chance to get into NUS ^^ ! Dreaming~~~~~~~~~~~~ LALALALA!

Probably putting relationship aside first, till he asked. :P

Had someone in mind right now, but I don't know how he felt towards me. I am not in a rush or am I desperate in getting him. Maybe having him by my side is enough :)

Although I really got quite jealous over the girls attention he got , but I am not in a position to make any remark. Personal space / privacy . ~

If he's the one he will stay, if not he will just move onto another place..

2011-03-23T13:35:00.004+08:00

It will be tonight woooohooo :D .

Saturday might go to ph , it all depends on my mood and if they want me to go. :3 hehe

Really glad that my birthday falls before poly starts, play hard before the study hard part comes in.

Lots of things happened recently but I just can't find time to update my blog. Nobody's reading it anyway I am like keep tracking of what I've did lol ...

Met quite a lot of people at the fair , made lots of friends recently and one of them actually intro me another job hehehe . Going for the interview later on :) ...

hehehe , but it's kinda far . :\

From what I saw that breaking up wasn't a bad thing too. It didn't affect both of us much in any way. So I think it's just merely an infatuation, not only for me but him as well. Thank you for those happy moments you gave when I was out with you. It just don't work when we are apart or that he gave me the feelings that he actually cared. We're of the different league, we are too different that I don't know how to handle. I won't even feel that I am at fault or I am sorry , ever since what I heard yesterday. but still , goodluck to you ... The decision made was right .

2011-03-22T21:33:00.000+08:00

2011-03-19T23:51:00.002+08:00

A sky full of stars. :)

2011-03-17T10:09:00.002+08:00

It's true hehehe .

I'm like so lazy to get prepared for work. Stoning infront of the lappy.
I just realised I wasn't using computer so much now, most of the time either I am working or playing outside till it's darn late..
So god-darn tired these few days, got to wake up late tomorrow :) . Enjoy sleeping while it last hehehe.

Going to sing K with dora , sharon and another girl which don't know if she's coming on Sunday/ hehehehe! Looking forward to next wed too ;) ;) ;) !!!! Looking forward to RP's orentation too weeeeee~~~~~~~~~

2011-03-13T09:21:00.003+08:00

IT fair 2011 .

First day.
My sales were like shit because I slacked and didn't sell too much ... Went around talking to people randomly rather than approaching customers lol. Aft people sold like 4 or 5laptops I started to get super worried that I will end up with a 0 pieces of laptop for that day.
In the end I managed to sell a 1.9k laptop with 3years warranty ;)! hohoho!

Second day.
I was a bit late for today , urgh. Lucky I didnt get scolded or what hahaha! I slacked all the way which I did for the first day. However I was lucky and managed to maintain and sold 2 laptops before the closing :x hahaha. Commission not much luh :( Saw JeeYong and another guy which is my senior and I forgot what's his name :O . Awww . Aft which saw another of my friend who worked at the IT fair logistic again! Lol

Thrid day.
I reached the latest out of all the days. Mutton woke up late or I don't know what he's doing LOL. :3 I sold like 3laptops and I went over to join Carol , Angus , Nathson and 2 guys from another booth .. Like we sat at the toilet area LOL . :P . I just stone there ~ Not enough of sleep :'( . After selling another 2lappies I went over to the toilet area again with Neressa , found bingda, carol and angus siting outside the toilet ._. ... As usual , I joined in till it's 9pm. Shop around with Nathson after that until 9.30pm+ . :\ LOLLLLL ! I am such a slacka!

Celebrate brendon's birthday after we end work HAHAHA!

Mutton said that making a wish at 11.11pm and it might come true, which I don't believe but I made a wish anyway. hahahah I am so not going to tell :) and I personally don't think it will come true :3.

IT fair is darn fun but it's too tiring and stressing ...

New laptop :) !

2011-03-09T22:11:00.002+08:00

Went to Republic Poly to get my laptopand get it configured hehehe :D . Although it's not exactly what I want but it's still nice , just that it's a little big. The screen is 14" and it weighs 2.1 . :) ~

Tomorrow I got to wake up at normal Secondary school timing. 6.30am , god no!! :(
Blame it on my speed , I need at least 2hours to prepare everything and it's the safest timing to make sure I've done all those preparings by 8am .. I don't know why Angus and Nathson want to go there so early but I doubt that there's any shop open at that timing ._. (Y) .

I am darn excited about tomorrow ! :P . Meeting people I've not seen for months , actually to be exact ... days . LOL! :3

My face feels darn hot , I think I got to sleep already. :) ! Blog again after Sunday heeehee!

2011-03-05T00:46:00.002+08:00

4/3/2010.

Having sore throat , fever coming on it's way. Got to rest now ;) .

2011-03-04T02:31:00.004+08:00

" 這一雙手明明握住了什麼 , 一握緊卻煙消雲散 . " -- Fahrenheit , Misunderstanding.

"你遇上一个人，你爱他多一点，那么，你始终会失去他。
然后，你遇上另一个，他爱你多一点，那么，你早晚会离开他。
直到一天，你遇到一个人，你们彼此相爱。
终于你明白，所有的寻觅，也有一个过程。从前在天涯，而今咫尺。”
-- 张小娴

Got these while reading someone's blog ;)

Was feeling down these few days due to certain things. Perhaps I should let these go.
The more I hold on to it tightly , the more I suffer.

Working tomorrow , maybe weekends too. There's nothing much to do at home anyway.
I hope my sales will hit up to 900bucks + again ;) or maybe a thousand , hehehe.
IT fair is coming hohoho! MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY , I LOVE YOU. ROLL INTO MY POCKETS OKAY? ;) . Thinking of the commissions, thinking of the pay, thinking of the people I'll meet ;) , I am so excited heehee!

Let's be positive for the whole of next week ;) ~ .

2011-03-02T03:09:00.002+08:00

That won't be you.

What doesn't exist in my dictionary? Friends , love , care and concern. It looks too fake for me. Just words with no actions. How isit like to get yourself stab in the back? Everybody just seems too fake. I should listen, I should trust how an outsider view all these, I should trust what I've heard / seen ...

I won't waste my time crying, it's not worth it. I will move on, I won't ever trust anyone anymore. Because 80% of what a person said = lies . What do people expect me to believe from their words?

2011-02-28T01:33:00.002+08:00

So everything that's happening now, those hardships... It will be useful to me someday? because of what I've experienced it ?

From people, I don't know what to believe. Like seriously ...
I don't even dare to trust anyone , or step out of my comfort zone and trust whomever is out of it.. If I do , I'll get hurt . So I'm left with assuming.
I don't even feel like telling anyone about anything that's happening to me or what's happening now. Complaining doesn't help, it won't change things around.

" Life is short, be happy " . I am trying to , but it seems impossible with so many things popping out . I don't feel like caring about anyone or anything and just go with the flow. I am tired of everything.

Sometimes I feel that I am really happy with the situation I am in now , sometimes I feel that it's karma of what I've done in the past , sometimes I feel that I am really disappointed in people around me because of what they had done , sometimes I feel that I don't really deserve all these. At the end of the day, although I've got so many friends around me. But what I really felt was that , there's no one who's there truly. I don't understand why people do certain things. However , everything one does ... they have a reason for what they did.
If not it's just the character of that person.

2011-02-25T02:23:00.003+08:00

22nd Feb.

Celebrate my birthday at night with my family.
I've got many wishes , but I made 3 . (:
1. Everybody in the family will be healthy.
2. I will be able to make it to University after Poly.
3. Last with my boyfriend :} , he will be there for me.

Sometimes I think I am someone with bad character. It really amaze me that there are people still liking me and loving me. Firstly , I don't think I am a good daughter . I spend lots of money and spend lots of time outside earning money or playing . I didn't do much housework, in fact most of the work I don't know how to do , other than cooking my own food. Secondly , it puzzles me what people like about me. It's like I won't even be myself around some people, it's difficult yet so many people are willing to be my friends :) .
I really love those people who won't judge me and be together with me for who I am, thank you :) .

Went sentosa underwater world with ♥ . He bought the stingray in the photo for me :) :D . It's darn cute ! hahaha . ( Thinking of stingray, it makes me hungry :( . I've not eaten my dinner urgh.. ! ) . Took lots of photos together hehehe , I love the angel fish and the jelly fish . They are so pretty :D .

Went to the beach during evening. When it is dark , I really can see lots of stars :D . heehee.
It will be really nice if I can see the whole sky full of stars ^_^ . I will be extremely happy, but Singapore is too bright to see all those. haha , maybe when I grow up and earn lots of money . I can go star gazing or watch meteor shower :D . I think I am weird . I love the city lights and the stars which I can see when I go to Marina Barrage . That's why I love the night :D .
Other girls probably will think that it's boring to go to some where high just to see the lights and the stars . Oh well ... It's free and it's pretty why not manzxc. :3

I am so excited about Saturday :D . hohohoho!

Birthday speech? hahaha

2011-02-22T02:18:00.007+08:00

Photo taken today :) . Finally I am 18. Hohoho!. Club & alcohols , I am coming for you!~ :D
It's good to do certain things at certain age. :) At least I'm happy trying out new things hehe.

I swear when I received those wishes, be it from people whom were close to me , normal friends or even strangers. I am darn happy and high. :D I don't even feel sleepy now. What's more my aunt gonna give me extra pocket money every week or month *forgot* :) . Might be getting a i-7 processor lappy, got to see the specs first hehehe ! I am so excited to go to school :D ...

I swear my boyfriend is darn sweet tonight. hahaha :) . Thanks darling hehehehe .
I should stop using " I swear " because he kept using it hehe.

Thanks darling for everything this month, hehe. Especially the zoo trip, it's fun :) Although I previously thought it would be super boring and I won't like it. In the end , I LOVE IT . Let's go again next year okay? I want to see panda and polar bear :) hehehe . Love chiu (L) :D .
Be more active in the day manzxc, then you can talk to me more & let me disturb more hehehehe :D . Thanks for bringing me laughter heheheheheh . I am so sweet :)
RT : i think i need you more than you need me. - That's not true darling :( !
*Ohya, ur letter still with me . Take from me tomorrow :3 hehe

Thanks kittycat for the wishes hehehehe! . I don't know how am I going to thank you for helping me in so much things. :) We're not close for the first few years in Secondary School but slowly got closer after we've gone to upper sec hehe.

You helped me so much in academics. be it in advising , forcing me to study or finding me to study together with you :) . It's fruitful and fun :) . I won't forget that night haha , 10.5hours at mac too ! :P ... We'll get into the university and be in the same school again hehe. Aim for GPA 4 & NUS , see you there. I will work very very hard for that ^^ ! .

You've been my listening ear all along, giving me advices and accompanying me through my hard times. :) I can never thank you enough for doing all these :) . In poly , I will still contact you . We will have our drinking session @ Huimin house and and and outing with gerald & all hahaha ! . Finally IT FAIR , chiong for the $ hahahahaha!! . You've been a great friend, thankyou :D . Love chiu! I mean it , & I'll treasure this friendship :)

Thanks Dora for the wishes :D . Although I don't know you for a long time but I really enjoy being with you hahaha. I'll be darn happy when you came weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee-ing to me :) hehehehe . Love chiu, remember to give me morning sms everyday okay :D hehehehe ..
Let's stay in contact , u better do hor . :) . Love you ! Thanks for the laughter you've bought me, no matter what happen I'll be here for you :) ! (L)

Thanks Shermaine for the early wishes :) . hahahahah . Last long with your harrison too ! :D . Gotta study hard in poly okay ! hahaha See you in school . :D and thanks for being friends with me for 6years & counting hehehehehe :D . thanks for making me laugh when im down and accompanying me through it. You've seen me grown up from a immature asshole to a immature girl now :) hehehe . It's different ! LOL!

Thanks Andy too , though you haven't wish me yet :( . thanks for those bullyings .
But you gave advices which are the most logical. Thanks for accompanying me all these months though the first impression is like shit hahaha! . U're interesting too , that's why we are friends hahahaha .. Thanks for bringing me laughter from nov 2010 till current hehehe . :)
& thanks for putting in effort and organise a small celebration for my birthday on wed hehehee. Wo xie xie ni :)

Others :
THANKS FOR ALL THE WISHES , ALL ARE APPRECIATED & LOVED okok ? :)

HAPPY VALENTINES !

2011-02-14T04:17:00.002+08:00

It's 4.34am in the morning now and I am still awake haha!
I can't get to sleep , I think I slept too much yesterday ;x hehehe . Didnt go to work when I am supposed to , blame it on my laziness :) .
Watched 8episodes of dramas for the whole day , fuck my life .

Now it's valentine , I am unsure of what will be happening later ... & I am oblivious to the place I am going to, urgh.... Hope it will be a good day. :)
Posting up maybe photos? :D , depends.
Pimple killed me off on this day.

I hope the rest of Feb is kinder to me , giving me less problems..
More money, presents, fun :) ~~
8days more I'll be 18 , I am so looking forward to it . hehehehe .

Schedule for the month :
18th, first monthsary.
22nd, 18th birthday.
23rd , party and drinks with Andy, Wl, Jw, Dora :D .
25th, Nigel's birthday chalet.
26th, Rachel's birthday celebration.

HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY TO ALL FEB BABIES :) .

12/2

2011-02-12T01:44:00.005+08:00

Overnight at Shermaine's house :3 (Y)

I've not been blogging for days, busy watching drama , etcs..
Tomorrow's Saturday but I got to work :( ~ .

Wearing a mask everyday, it's pretty tiring. But even if I am not no one seems to understand the circumstances I am in. Telling others are pretty useless too, there's no words to describe how I felt. How bad you're fucking feeling, only you yourself know the best." -

I'm kinda emotional these few days. Is it me or it's the environment , everything are changing days after day. I am tired of everything, like putting effort into anything. Somehow I am still very negative about working things out. I just feel like sleeping and not waking up in the morning , ain't it better this way? People doesn't know anything because I am always smiling , playing , enjoying ..

For enjoying & playing part . I missed one of my friend. Haven't been messaging since days. :( He canceled trips and all & I don't see him anywhere in robinsons as well :\ .

CNY

2011-02-05T00:20:00.003+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year :) !
Be it happy or not , it's still a day. Why not be happy everyday?

2/02 :
Work in the morning, thought that there won't be a lot of people on that day. However it's the opposite of what I'd expected, IT'S FLOODED WITH PEOPLE doing last minute shopping :3. I'm busy like mad till evening, I went for my last minute shopping too ... Stocked up my cosmetics :). Reached home at the timing whereby it's just nice for reunion dinner.
@ Night , I went out with Andy to catch a movieeee :) . Treat him to it because he had been such a good listener and advisor all along. hahaha! Thank you, though it's not your problem but (Y) ur advises were meaningful and logical.

Darling suddenly called me, my mood totally changed. Andy said that I'm crazy LOL .
I missed him a lot, that's why! How I wish I'd could see him immediately.

3/02 :
Chu yi, stayed at home. Relatives and my mom's friends came, received hongbao and they went off shortly after. @ Night , I went out for another midnight show. After that headed to TPY to slack , drank half a cup of chivas. It's darn little , because my friend don't want to let me drink ! :\ :\ . NEVA SHARE, only a little bit! :(

Talked to darling on msn for awhile... Mood lighten up a little.

4/02 :
Chu er, woke up at 12.30pm due to the arrival of my aunt. Looked super unglam when I'm walking out of my bedroom. @ Noon . Went to grandma house followed by grandma's sis and and and my uncle's house . :3 @ Night . Went to my fav aunt house :) . -> home sweet home.
I am stoning infront of my laptop now.

Not expecting to get any reply from him ._.
He's like a ... irritating torn in my flesh. No matter who I'm with , he's always popping out in my mind. However I had fun with my friends :3 .

If you really did love someone, show some care and concern. She'll fly off when she thinks that you doesn't love her anymore if you kept ignoring 'em.

2011-01-29T00:09:00.002+08:00

Excited about tomorrow.. :D Going shopping with huilin , class gathering ... woohoo :)
Like a finally uhhh ...~ Gonna bring my camera along hehehe.

I was mad tired these few days haha, and darn lazy . I don't even bother about lots of stuffs. Now I am going to sleep as early as 12.30 am :)

2011-01-25T11:07:00.002+08:00

I hope it's not a dream .

Thinking too much nowadays. I wish there's school, hate waking up thinking of nonsense or going to work . It's just too boring, getting tired of all these.

2011-01-24T02:11:00.004+08:00

Doubt that anyone ever come to my blog already haha

Feel darn pampered & darn happy nowadays ... I hope these would last :)
Looking forward to Feb. 14th , 18th & 22nd hahaha!

You are a dream that I never want to wake up from. ♥ :)

2011-01-22T00:27:00.002+08:00

In reality , I care but I don't want to show it out .

[edit]
I found this in my past post. fucking funny I can't stop laughing

I must blog about what happened in assembly today. HAHA.
Super funny.

Mr Chong wanna act cool, then ask everyone to practice bowing. Then he like asked level by level to bow to him, if they bow up to his standard, then they can leave.

So, when it was the sec 4/5 turn to bow, the class boys damn funny i swear, they say must bow 90 degrees, and plus when they bow first time, all of them shouted what "Yi ji gong" or something (I dont know my chinese sucks). Then Mr chong still ask us to bow another time to him, so it's like, he's on the stage, then the whole sec 4/5 bowing to him, then my class boys were like "Zai ji gong" HAHAHAHA. Funniest is Mr chong say not good enough, must bow third time.
And melvyn was like "WAH, he want us bow three times somemore" LOLOLOL

Then after we bowed three times to him, he said thank you. HAHAHA LOL WTF. And i think i heard Ivan shout what, "Can bring him go burn already. (In chinese) HUAT AH!!" HAHAHAHA!! Wtf, damn funny i cannot take it. Say until like it's a funeral. LOL.

♥

2011-01-21T00:55:00.003+08:00

These few days I've got good mood all thanks to somebody.
I got to admit that he's sweet , although I didn't want to. :)
5working days really can kill me, after Chinese New Year = 5 working days.
Considering to change my job , but i don't know what to work as.

Bought eyeshadow today :) it's almost similar to the photo above.
Those without shimmer , natural colour ...
I think I should just stop buying cosmetics LOL ...

Meeting ♥ tomorrow :) . Seeyas.

Once more.

2011-01-18T02:30:00.002+08:00

After so many months , like finally I've decided to go into it again . :)
Please don't disappoint me again manzxc.

Next , I am waiting for school woohoo~ . I seriously don't want to work anymore, it's dead boring and tiring. Actually not that boring luh, i get to play and mix around :D

2011-01-16T18:16:00.002+08:00

Shut your ears and move ahead.

Haven't been blogging since the results day. I was quite depressed with what I've got , but after thinking for sometime I think I will just work hard in RP if i went in . It's like I am left with no choice, it's not that something I like .

Life's great by the way. Received my pay and I can do my shopping next week and buy my mom her birthday present. Although she's extra irritating today ;\ . She's there telling me " DON'T THROW , DON'T THROW " when she's the one whom asked me to pack my room. Then I am like, I don't throw then pack for what ? Past years, whatever I threw away she would just pick it up and put it back into my drawer...

I just got to know someone, he's darn cute. I don't know but he seems to be lazy and he seems to be someone who likes imagine things a lot. It's a relieved that he isn't from Snowdown like Keith LOL ! If not talking would be a problem , ha! I would get nagged whenever I just walked to him and talk to him.. People would just keep psycho me , telling me that he's not a good guy , he love to cut sales , whichever whichever is angry with him, dislike him.... blablabla. (Y) people who study psychology = siao . That's something I don't understand hahaha , he seems alright to me though :\.

My moood today is terribly bad , I don't know why.

Rushed post.

2011-01-10T12:18:00.002+08:00

There won't be any pictures till I came back from school.

Results taking day today, seriously I wish I can skip this. What if I got the same old bad results like what I've got for prelims?! & the one like Last year's Chinese.
What if I didnt get 15points and below, where should I go after that.
Fuckin' lots of questions running through that mind.
I feel like crying
I feel darn nervous
I feel like shit
I feel cold

What if I didnt do it :( !?
Should I like
cry and jump down from a fucking building
running around screaming " FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKK! "
jumping up and down till i hit my head on the ceiling
eat hamburger ... etcs.

I REALLY DONT FEEL LIKE GOING NB !

Jang Geun Suk

2011-01-05T01:30:00.000+08:00

I was standing around on the narrow street
when those indifferent words grazed by me
Hello, hello
Unfamiliar but not awkward, it felt nice

Would it be okay to lean on you?
With concern, that wrinkled sincerity unfolds in front of me
Thank you, thank you
Conveying my simple, thankful honesty

That's true
Hello, hello, my cute angel
Stay by my side always
Also
Thank you, thank you
That's what I want to tell you
No no no no no
Just the words thank you

It's not easy to be deliberately wrong
because the more you do, the more you'll regret enduring it
I know, I know
Maybe it's better for that smiling Pierrot

Would I be able to stand up without becoming dirtied?
Though I brush myself off, the pain builds
She knows, she knows
No longer is tomorrow only mine

The world I've confronted so many times
You've taught me to greet it
My heart overflows with this melody
I'll go on together with you

That's true
Hello, hello, my cute angel
Stay by my side always
Also
Thank you, thank you
That's what I want to tell you
No no no no no
More than a love confession
The words thank you
convey all my feelings

2010 , it's totally screwed.

2010-12-26T01:57:00.002+08:00

It's Christmas season and I am not really happy. I don't know 2010 isn't very good anyway.
Finally it''s ending. Relationship ended, O level ended.
2011 I don't know what to expect . Be it good or bad , it doesn't really matter.
Confusions .

Life sucks, seriously........

2010-12-21T01:28:00.002+08:00

Been happy these few days :) .
I am still working nonstop , not because I've got people to support ..
It's because I don't take $ from my parents anymore , I support them in a way that I will give part of my salary to them..

Ahh I'm tired , blog another day bye.

2010 .

2010-12-17T01:59:00.005+08:00

Where's my rainbow?

Christmas is coming and town areas in Singapore were beautiful now.
However, I've no special someone to celebrate the special day with ...
Probably going out with friends :) !

I've not been really happy these few days due to the things that happened to me.
I am really exhausted after taking up another job, I can't really cope it. And with the ongoing spams on my phone made my day worse. Like I don't even want to talk to anyone then they kept messaging me , it's like forcing me to talk to them. If I don't reply , I got scolded. What the fuck is this? Where should I be venting all my anger on?
Everyone had their own problems , life isnt free and easy. If it is , nobody will be worrying , thinking of their future...

I do the things I like , I hate to be controlled.
You want to talk to me , then do it. If you think I am dao because I don't reply or you mind a lot that people don't reply your message , don't talk to me by all means.
I ignore peeps not because I am super confident in my looks or what , it's just because i am tired or I am busy serving customers -.- .

I need a person to make me feel better not worse...

That's what....

2010-12-10T01:23:00.002+08:00

That's how confidence are being built up ;) ~

Been really busy lately, not because I met up with anyone or gone for a movie.
I've been working and working ... Lifeless , I know ~ LOL
Although I'm exhausted but it's worth it.
Salaries will be coming in next week , latest :D .
Now, SHOPPING SPREEE ... !

Lots of things happened lately and I am not going to elaborate . I think everyone can see it from my previous posts. Not being emotional or what, just sad . Aww. ~ :') ~
I am fine anyway. I am happy lately anyway LOL ~ :)

Disappointment.

2010-12-07T01:53:00.002+08:00

I can't stop laughing at this , like omg only :x

I will love you no more , because you are not worth it. :)
Given good looks but what lies beneath are important too.
I am just disappointed , I don't know it's like a mix feelings . I don't know how should I react.
However it's proven that you are a liar :) .

I almost fell for the trap but miracle happened and pulled me out of it.
Daddy god must have really known what's good and bad for me.
Knowing I would not be able to cope with the consequences, he helped me out of it unknowingly. Although it really hurts now , but it wouldn't be after a period of time. A'men :) ..

I don't see why there's so many guys caring and worrying about me .
Perhaps, as a friend they care for me more than you. So why should I continue to like you?
Love is more than just obsession , however if you doesn't feel for someone, rejecting will be a better choice rather than leaving that person hanging like an idiot.

I am so tired of working life. Everyday is just work work work, got bored of it. Nothing new :(~

2010-12-03T01:40:00.002+08:00

I like the gold one. Lol
I'm thinking and considering whether to buy it a not or buy a different model.

I'm unhappy and I feel weird. Wtf .
It's fine I think I'll just move on .... I'll stop all these shit after Christmas.

2010-11-30T02:04:00.002+08:00

IT fair finally ended :) ... I am so glad! LOL
I seriously hate it , I hate working there :\ .
My legs were filled with blisters . Painful D;

Got a minor sore throat , but i guess it's alright.
working tomorrow , grrrr..... :\

Definition

2010-11-27T02:05:00.002+08:00

Purpose of life : being happy, having fun and earn more and more money.
I don't know if I will find love, that someone just didnt appear yet :D
Money is the priority :D .

Saying about money, working at IT fair was difficult. :( It's not that easy earning few hundred bucks in just a few days. I'll work hard tomorrow to earn more :D . Hope those dudes who told me on msn that they want to buy come , they better come! . See the rest of you at work :D . ~

Was quite shocked when I saw so many of my friends at the fair. Awwww, sweet uh.. Just happened to drop by only right ... haha~ Suddenly thought of 183, he can help me sell. Wth.
Selling laptops is like x10 more difficult than selling bedsheets, fighting with so many brands which were more awesome than mine :( . Seriously, I am selling some brand I hate. Aww.

Singaporeans were especially rude to the promoters uh?
Me : " Hey sir, looking for a computer? "
Him : " What brand are you selling for? "
Me : " uhmn .. HP :) "
Him : " :\ HP?! , I don't buy that brand. It simply SUCK " (Emphasize on the suck) .
I was like stunned for a few seconds, my colleague just replied with " sure " .
and told me not to worry about it .
An adult being so rude to a 17 years old, nice. If you don't like you should just shoook your head and say no thanks politely. Aren't these what you guys teach? -.-

2010-11-26T01:15:00.002+08:00

Paper was okay today, finished before time :) ...
Hope that it's really fine , I can balance though :)

Today's a bad day for me.
How can it be good when she's angry with me -.- , and how isit good that I've got lots of paper cuts on my fingers ...
Swiped the receipts roll accidently , cuz I was simply too pissed .
Almost damage the receipts machine lol. :\ , whatever it's not spoiled anyway.

IT Fair tomorrow @ expo. Idk if it will be good or bad.
Got to speak up to earn more.
It will be different from robinsons , that's for sure.

` I couldn't understand - you.

-

2010-11-24T19:15:00.002+08:00

LCCI exam tomorrow :D .
Finally it's Thurs hehehe ~
I am looking forward to Monday, although I'm working but it's the slackest day of the week :D
I don't have to do sales or what, just merely scan items into the system xD~

Fuck I shouldn't be happy too early. -.-
GOT TO WORK TOMORROW , HOLY SHIT. I THOUGHT I CAN REST YOU KNOW.
YOU KNOW IM FUCKING TIRED I WANT TO SLEEEP!?

True;

2010-11-23T23:36:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I want to meet you really badly.
The sight of you just make me feel really happy, I don't know why~
I don't know what exactly I am falling for right now. I am just so confused.

I'm always falling for guys from the same horoscope.
I don't know what's so attractive about them.
I got over one and here comes another one.

Went for lessons on Mon and Tue - LCCI .
It's so boring on both days.. I just dread going to lessons :\
Hope Thurs would arrive fast, this week would end fast.
This week sucks seriously.. A week without rest.

There's problem with me getting along with people. & I'm low on confidence level.
Got to build that up :) , that's what I realized today.
I'm gonna do it :

1. Focus on the positive things that are happening in your life. Negative things will only give you misery and anxiety. Practice positive self-talk and concentrate on positive thoughts.

2. Love what you have and not what you don't have.

3. Don't blame yourself. Instead, identify and correct your weaknesses. Take responsibility.

4. Surround yourself with people who are encouraging and supportive. Stay away from people who are making you feel worse.

5. Know your strengths and futher strengthen them.

6. Weaken your weaknesses by improving yourself and asking for help.

7. Believe that you can. Say "I can" as often as you can.

8. Establish your own goals and set your own benchmark. Gradually, try to achieve them without comparing yourself to others. Use your own benchmark and not the opinion of others as your guide.

Develop the habit of improving your self-esteem. A good self-esteem is the precursor of all innovations, inventions, progress, and great relationships.

Start it now!

I will do it :D ~
G'LUCK~

Bullshits (:

2010-11-21T23:43:00.002+08:00

' I love you ' was too heavy to be used.
It's not like you're with that person for years, how do you know you love 'em.
It's just merely sweet talking :).
I'd rather they prove it with their actions than to tell me they loved me.
What do you loved about me? ' my looks? ' - " sorry you're out :) ~ "

I've seen this guy's blog and decide to post this...
His feelings for that girl were just merely infatuation , u loved her looks ...
After awhile it dies off, what's the point of it ?
It's just a WASTE OF TIME . I rather work and earn $ , it's more realistic ....
Money is my husband that will never leaves me (: ~ LOLOLOL
I LOVE YOU, MONEY. I REALLY DO.

2010-11-21T00:09:00.000+08:00

Negative~

2010-11-19T01:14:00.003+08:00

I'm simply negative like &#@*#&@(#*@.
Hahaha I kept thinking that it's not going to work out.
But I'm confused too .
I don't even know such situation exists, in the past it's just "Oh I flirt with him " awhile later " I strangely got him " and everything is just .. " weird~ " .... Now it's not :(
Sometimes I wonder : " What do guys see in me? " I'm not pretty or what-so-ever, I am not a nice person either.

I was scheduled with work like almost everyday this week, it's like what the fuck?! I need to rest
I really need it . I feels that I'm a grumpy person now :(
I rather study than to work, really.... I am not so tired physically during O's.
Jason will be back in a few weeks time...

♥

2010-11-17T03:04:00.002+08:00

(Y) ~

I am absolutely crazy. :)
Well, I'm lovin' it at least my message inbox wasn't that empty anymore.♥

I should try not to be mean to people haha.

Unhappy~

2010-11-13T10:45:00.002+08:00

Things happened few days ago and I am pretty upset about it , but I can't take back what I've said too :( .
Although I doubt that anyone's reading my blog nowadays, I am still posting :3

My greatest record about not eating ... I didnt eat anything yesterday, not even a single small meals. Just a cup of bubbletea. For girls who's on diet they'll be like wow. For me it's just because I've no appetite and I don't feel like eating , partly because of my mood :) .
My life was in a mess. My stomach wasn't functioning well , my sleeping time was horrible too .

Regarding relationship thingy .
My ex were getting married and I'm like wow lol ! Congrats anyway.
Asked me to give guys a chance, but one question " how? " . Lol!
Basically most of them fall for me yet I've no interest, those I had interest in them most probably they won't like me :( .
So how am I supposed to get a boyfriend? haha .

When time comes , he will come .

Guess I'll have to work on myself rather than worrying about this. I suppose guys will fall for girls who's got good character as well as appearance, am I not right? :)
My temper / sarcasm / over-thinking / mean to peeps was a big problem , so gotta change that haha~
Extending back my hair length , new cosmetics , new lenses , new dresses, etcs.
It's gonna cost a bomb~ :(

Feelings

2010-11-11T01:31:00.003+08:00

(Y)~

Simply work work work :) . HAHA!
I enjoyed life that were made busy and I've no time for anything else.
because at the end of the day I felt satisfied as I've accomplished everything needed heh~

Work at yamaha was bored. Was hoppin' around looking at all piano/guitar scores.
Did cashier work , counted money all day , swipe people's cash cards which I wished it's mine , laughed at those aunties jokes , waiting for messages , thinking bout' food , thinking bout' going home LOL . !
My aunt gave me 100bucks which was like "YAY" for me :D .
That's lifeless :\ .

I should make myself happy rather than revolving my world around relationship.
Enjoy carefree life and ... WORK FOR MORE MONEY WHEN YOU ARE SINGLE! :P...

I doubt so.

2010-11-09T22:56:00.002+08:00

This is like the suckiest year I ever got.

Everything was broken , it just can't restore to what it was originally.
I doubt that I would ever be serious and get into relationship anymore.
It just sucked too much , like seriously -.-
I couldn't take anymore shit . That's all.

2010-11-06T20:01:00.003+08:00

Perfectly true.

I don't really reply or talk to people much because none of 'em interests me or they could be part of my interest. That's the reason why I treated everybody differently. If I think that you're interesting or whatever part of you interests / attracts me . I'll talk to you for sure. I am sure I don't feel the same towards everybody if not I'll be talking to like .... LOTS of people .
I absolutely love friends. However, I choose them wisely :).
Relationship, it all depends :). If I think I like you, then that's it :). I don't really care bout' this till someone right came and confess. I don't do confessions :3.

Believe in sight : You're on your own in your limited space.
Believe in faith : It's the opposite of 'believe in sight' , because you don't get to see whatever you hoped for immediately.

I hope for more As for this O level :) . & I hope I will get into Ngee Ann Polytechnic , the course of my choices. .

It wasn't because I am mean that I dislike people. It's the way they presented themselves to the others. Like who will like someone who curse and swears about everybody and everything in the world. That merely depicts the character of the person. Personally I would think twice about being friends with such peeps. Awwwww~ That's sad but this is how it work in the reality .

-

2010-11-01T23:36:00.002+08:00

Someone who'll protect you, shelter you from the rain...
That's so sweettt :)

Exams were ending soon, few more papers to go :D . It'll be heaven after this hehehe!
Tomorrow's accounts I hope it wouldn't be that difficult :)
Hopefully I will get an A1 or at least a B3 that's the least I can get :( !! .

Oh right let's blog about yesterday, - Sunday 31.10.2010.

Went out with some stupid boy to watch 71: into the fire . For him the movie is good, for me was just so-so cause it's like. nothing related to my history other than the introduction :( . haha
After that went to hongkong cafe at vivo to eat, that copycat ordered the same drink as me ....
( This proves that I'm a cat huh, but i can't meowzxc :P ) ..
Talked for like HOURS before going home, the trip is fun thou :D . HAHAHA THANK YOU MUTTON :) !

Went home and stare at the computer screen cuz' I've finished playful kiss :(
I think the next korean drama I'll be watching is " God Of Study " I heard from my church friend that it's good :).. Chinue introed me dramas too but I'm not that interested cause IT'S RAIN!!!!! :\ lol ! I remembered I watched " Full house " , and i got so bored of it.... HAHA lol

FLU DAY. !

2010-10-31T00:58:00.002+08:00

I want to go for a sky ride although I am scared of the heights :)
Seems cool and pretty. haha!
Browse through some website and got this ...

I'm excited when I think about the movie I'll be watching tomorrow :) , it's beneficial as it's about the Korean war which is an additional thing on the chapter : " Start of cold war " I did my notes nicely today and I got so tired of writing it so straight which seems to look like it's printed out from the computer and not handwritten.

Anyway I can't get to sleep now, my nose was blocked for the whole day and it's freaking horrible ! I hope it would go away tomorrow :( I felt like dying today and my nose were tearing apart due to the rubbing for the ENTIRE DAY. I hate it so.
My nose are like so flat with consistant rubbing would make it uglier for sure~
I was complaining because I really don't feel well right now , even if i go to bed my nose would be BLOCKED that's how horrible it is ! :(
No one cares ._.

Someone to hold.

2010-10-30T01:49:00.003+08:00

Thinking once, twice... The idea of this would be gone like a child popping bubbles :)

Been getting headache lately. It's getting worse everyday, like i feel like fainting or something?
My aunt said that it's because of the sinus and the stress. I don't feel stress because I get to watch my drama every night. :)

I am getting desperate hahaha! Maybe~ . but still I will never get into it unless I think that he's worth it. :) Awwww, that's a high expectation from those guys manzx...
That's the end of what i felt recently :3 .

This guy amazed me like really.. He's so wonderful in covering songs and making his own . :)
Well, I'm addicted to the background song of mine.. It's by him . :D
I wished that I've got those mike and a voice as nice as his... This kind of guy is so charming :).

It's 2am now so I'm just typing nonsense ;3 I should get to bed nao . bye :D

2010-10-29T00:29:00.001+08:00

I really feels like doing those crazy shit.

2010-10-28T01:15:00.004+08:00

Well, I feel like riding this. I was feeling really down now.
What should I do ? I should know that was a wrong choice, it's silly isn't it?
Falling for someone whom I shouldn't. It's so miserable.
Feeling down right now but it's fine.
I got to study my ass off . Aint going to take this shit anymore.

Aren't fated , that's my conclusion.
Although I don't like G-dragon but i like the lyrics.

Just random.

2010-10-28T01:06:00.001+08:00

How nice if I am able to find such person. :) .
G'night peeps .

Passion

2010-10-26T00:59:00.003+08:00

Pamper yourself , do whatever you liked :) . Keep on trying and you'll succeed.
Basically I am rather interested in doing covers , I did that since the beginning of this year but I just didn't post it up online. Although I failed most of the time but it gets better after awhile of practise. :) Being able to see improvements , you will feel really happy especially when you heard it.. I seriously am .

I looked up to my friend and those youtubers who've posted covers because they did good and to my friends who had practised it for years.
I remembered posting that I wanted to learn dancing, ohwell I think that's just infatuation or rather after watching step up 3 I got the ... I don't know , its just something in me that tell me to do it . After thinking and stuffs , still I'll turn to music :). That's what I'd enjoy the most.

Getting my friend to teach me piano and guitar while I'll be attending classes for guitar at yamaha. My aunt's cool about it. Well, I'll improve in my vocals hopefully :D .

There's so much I wanted to do after 'O' level. Today it's just the first paper and it got me so excited looking forward to holiday not forgetting that I got to work hard before sweet things come along. :)

Even if I don't have love from any guys, I am happy because I am doing what I liked . :D
Oh well sometimes I want a boyfriend like every girls had , sometimes I'm just scared that if I found one I won't be able to do things that I liked or being restricted . I don't want to miss out fun anymore! If the guy want to be my boyfriend the first thing he gotta do is to TRUST ME , not meeting me everyday . Like seriously I am quite scared of guys who's so tied up that he wanted to meet me everyday. It's not sweet but scary, like a cctv 24/7 Mon-Sun without rest.

All the glory and praises goes to you.
Amen .

thoughts.

2010-10-24T20:46:00.002+08:00

Everything's possible hun.

It's true that it's easy to fall for someone but it's absolutely difficult to maintain it.
It's proven that I've no such ability to make someone happy because what I've seen was people leaving me or just throwing me cold shoulders that doesn't seem to be nice too. I' am sure I've always caused guys into the state of agony.

That's why I choose to stay alone, till I met whom it seems to be the right one.
For now I am not interested so don't ask me if I am single or attached .
Well for sure I am attached .. to my drama? :) It's something which keep my interests for a long time.

-

2010-10-24T01:36:00.002+08:00

Chicago, IL Millenium Park.

Haha America is so awesome. Filled with amazing things, like alaska , golden gate bridge located at San Francisco, Niagara Falls , etcs ... No wonder Kristopher and Chinue were so happy living there :) . I'll be happy if I am able to stay at Chicago :) It's near to L.A. it's awesome hahaha !

I'd want go star gazing, New Zealand's mountains, see Alaska's Aurora or put it in a simple way, travel around to awesome places with the guy I love. That's awesome isn't it ?! . :D

Smile.

2010-10-22T23:50:00.002+08:00

Your smile lingers on my mind.

I was actually stucked at my Math problem for quite awhile today. It's still fruitful as I've cleared my doubts . I really hope I can do well for this 'Obstacles' , no wonder it's called 'O' level. Make sense right. :3 .

Through this period everyone suffered a lot. I was quite slacked so I could not say that I am stressed up or what, but you can't say that I was not worried at all for my papers.
Hiatus for now. Would not be updating till it's all over :) .

I just suffered from some minor emotional crash, but it's still manageable.

Difference.

2010-10-21T23:38:00.002+08:00

Outside :)
In school :)

I would like to see the positive side rather than those negative ones. I just couldn't pick myself up yet I am wasting my time and life away. Secondary school was a regret , who does not have regrets in life.. Not just merly academic but time spent and addiction to the internet .

I'll walk out of my nuts tomorrow, :3 .

My bros coming back , in 55days? Maybe that's what he meant on his facebook status?

missing him, been years honey!

Lost of motivation.

2010-10-21T00:09:00.002+08:00

On Monday. :)

Went studying with meowz (Huilin) at subway . Took this photo while I am having a break from all the work. Slowly I am losing my motivation to really study and move on.
As the days past, I feel less confident and ... I don't know, just scared.

Jumbled up emotions wasn't a good experience. Got pissed at people when they just did something minor, basically I am throwing tantrum everyday.
How good can this be? .

I really hate my life now, it's filled with mountains of work.
I ended up playing, laughing, chatting in the library.
I think I must really isolate myself from the others in order to concentrade, like what I did on Tues :) . Built up my own blockade, just like what Stalin did to Germany. LOL
Maybe I should build some 'Iron Curtain' as well to separate myself from the others :3
LMAOS.

It's really fucked up now.
No more words other than FUCKED UP can be used to describe my situation.

Miracles.

2010-10-18T02:12:00.002+08:00

Sparkles of hope .

Hardwork , luck and miracle comes together.
I hope luck would be by my side this year and miracle next year to surprise me with my grades.
That will be the best birthday present. :)
Since it's on Feb , why can't my present be prepaid instead of accrued present haha ...
That's really lame but .... I WANT THAT.

Less than a week time, O's coming.
Less than a month time, I will be working.
Less than a month time, I will be learning some musical instruments.

I am sure I will be able to achieve what I want.
Stop being a bitch and stop those things from happening, because I won't allow it .
This life is mine, I am going to live it well :3 .

2010-10-17T12:14:00.001+08:00

Yes i can do it :3 .
Off to study with meowz and Emi :D (L) (L) (L) !!!

Struggle.

2010-10-17T02:42:00.004+08:00

I hope.

It totally fits the theme ' struggle ' .
I am struggling to contain all my feelings, not telling you about it.
It's so difficult that I feels like dying , sometimes I just hope that I am brave enough to tell you.
Chasing after someone I like wasn't my style.
Everything will be gone soon in just 2month, before christmas it will be gone.
It will be just a dream or maybe a short drama .
Hinted, but it's not successful.

2011 is where everybody gets separated, stepping onto different paths in life - major decision to make .
Graduate with a big smile , singing a song for friends who had been with you for 5years.
Deep down, " I don't want to leave you all, I dont want to leave my comfort zone " .
That's me.

2010 - this year.

Myself :
Be confidence .
Don't give up that easily.
By adam khoo: " If people don't give you chances, create chances/opportunities. Aim for the best. Do the things you enjoy, not for the money. You will come to enjoy what you are doing and find happiness doing it. Do not be the majority because what you will be getting is what the majority are getting. Be the minority , get the best . "

Relationship:
Liked someone but can't be with him it's torturous.
The best choice was to 'let go' because you can't be the one.
Holding on, it makes the situation worse.
Not lovers but friends . It still can be as great, as long as that person smiled.

Friendship:
It's valuable.
While growing up I don't value friendships till this year I came to realised how important it is.
Without my friends, I wouldn't be what I am now.
Whenever I am down they were always there to lend me a helping hand , a warm shoulder.
They are great listeners and I loved them a lot :).

Academic:
Practice makes perfect.
Books can be interesting as well.
It's like a drama / movie in words , it gives you space to imagine.

Last minute work, don't work as well as hardwork.
You sow and you'll reap...

Greatest moments :
Joined New Creation Church.
Strange environment at first.
But by stepping out of my comfort zone I learnt more things, know new people.
They are awesome and one of a kind.
Thank you daddy god.

Graduation.

2010-10-15T21:40:00.003+08:00

Graduation badge.
5N1 classroom :D

Biology class..

Did nothing in school today except taking photos. :)
Unglams photos were uploaded in facebook hahah!

15th oct. Thinking about this . O level were coming and he's leaving.
Was really quite upset when I think about it , I couldn't bear to let this just end.
Even if it's just purely friendship.

To that someone :
If you're smart enough, it's kinda obvious. I don't know how you feels cause afterall it's just a crush. I will be happy even if it's just friends and nothing beyond that.
Because you're too awesome :) .

If you don't feel for me... it's fine .
We'll be friends , just tell me aft O level :)

Graduation.

2010-10-15T00:21:00.002+08:00

Will blog tomorrow :)

Lazy

2010-10-10T23:50:00.002+08:00

There goes my eyes, without makeup :) .

I am pretty lazy nowadays to even put on any makeup before going out to study . I would put at least concealer , eyeliner , mascara... ;3 .

There's night study going on for this entire week . :(
I am graduating this coming fri :D , like finally LOL

Isolate .

2010-10-10T02:02:00.003+08:00

It wouldn't kill to just leave me alone.

I am pissed now like what the fuck ? .
If you are horny let it be , I did not reply you let it be too.
Do you have to go to an extend of giving out my email to some unknown person who was as annoying as you?
Are your EQ really that low or are you're just not in the right mind?

I am not those girls you should seek .
Because what you will be ending up with insults and scoldings . I bet nobody love that.
Only retards finds it okay. Arent you just wasting your time?
Why don' just get a life and live it well ?

Retard asking another retard to add me. Naise.
Great minds think alike huh? . Do I have to praise you both? .
Good job, both. I'm sure you tried hard.

Infatuation.

2010-10-09T00:16:00.002+08:00

You lit up my dull sky and drew a smile on my face :) .
Breathless , heart-racing , empty-mind..
What should that be? - Another infatuation?
If so, I think I fall at the right place , wrong time.

It was a Friday night today :) . Mood was not bad , I am just exhausted from the work I had been doing for the week. Time was passing really fast , next Friday is our last day in school.
Graduation ceremony will be held, school will be ending @ 11am .
I am still going back to school during study break to attend lessons :(

I got to go sleep nao, bye :D .

Being positive.

2010-10-07T22:16:00.002+08:00

I wish I could think that way.

I got to build up my confidence level. Whatever I did I will tends to doubt my answers or the way I answered the questions. I am too careless in Math and POA , it's not that I don't understand what the question was trying to ask.

Although I improved 10+ points from Prelim 1 to Prelim 2 . I still feel that I am still super not prepared for 'O' level. It's like 17days more ? I don't count the days so I am unsure .
I need more energy to stay awake & also for my brain to function better :)

NGEEE ANN although I love you so much , but if my results don't appeal to the requirements needed to enter . I will have to turn to TEMASEK :( - NOOOOOOO-

Anyway I decided to take LCCI book keeping cert after O levels :3 .

F.I.N.E

2010-10-04T23:46:00.002+08:00

I'm FINE nowadays.

I don't know but I really hate my life now. I hate to care about others feelings , I hate to care about all sort of things ... I don't care if people could accept it but I'm simply just a person who can't be bothered with anything.

What's keeping me?! I am pissed and annoyed, that's all I can feel. Nothing other than that.
I am not stupid, do you think I was that innocent afterall to believe whatever people told me?
I don't even trust anyone in the first place. Deceived by my looks huh? you're just falling for some endless trap where I will sucked you up dry. Are you feeling guilty in someway by deleting those comments? Well then, stop criticizing me. I did not lie, even if I do you won't be able to tell.

Do I looked like a girl who's lack of guys or despo for some?
Lemme tell you, I hope I've no guys disturbing me or liking me for some reasons.
Fuck. This therefore shows how FINE I am. :)

I am loaded with work and this is what I've got, nice.
My world just revolves around the misery I've been having these days, what am I supposed to do/say? .
I don't need somebody to pretend that he actually cared when he's just flirting around. I'd rather stay alone and like who I like.

I love Asians pretty boy, have a problem with that?

2010-10-03T00:13:00.002+08:00

San Francisco .
Touchinue Lee lived here :D .
Awww it's really nice and I want to visit it as well as visiting that asian doodie. :3

I have nothing much to write today. Just to share this photo I've found when I was reading some article. :) .

Standing on the edge of timeline.

2010-10-02T01:09:00.004+08:00

A river cuts the rock, not because of its power, but because it keeps going on... Remember never lose your hope... Defend and face the challenges to increase the courage, keep moving toward the target, to tell the world that there is nothing impossible for you..!
- by someone who left it on my tagboard.

I can't say that I'm good and I am doing well , because I'm not. It seems really difficult to believe in myself, having confidence that I'll do well. I know that affects my life a lot, I am trying to see the world in a different angle from what I had been looking at all these while.
At the another side of the world, I might just see something that caught my eyes and gave me confidence and motivation so that I will move on in life to a greater heights.

It's extremely exhausting , but it will be ending in a month time.
Few more days to graduation. :) getting really excited now but at the same time I'm worried for my examinations.

Singapore.

2010-09-30T01:14:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wished I was borned in Taiwan , America or UK :)
I've heard that they can just major in one course and do well for it.
It's pretty good because you get to learn what you are interested in, unlike Singapore.
I got to take Sciences and I did badly for both combined Bio&Chem.
It's like totally not understandable. We changed several teachers in a year when we were in lower sec. Whenever a new teacher walked it, my head would be on the table. My eyelids just feels so heavy.

Well, i'm trying to cope and revise my work now. Hopefully I will be able to do well in the actual examination like jumping a few grades up.
I believe I can do it so yep. :)

Now I'm going to sleep already it's almost 2 am and I'm still awake.
Got to change the sleeping habit of mine :3 . booohoo , bye!

Rejection=

2010-09-26T02:24:00.003+08:00

I think I did not rant much nowadays - that's good :)

I want to go to Ngee Ann sososososososososo much. ! :D
I couldn't think about anything happy to blog about, lol. I am not really happy with how I was.

Hon did not online for a week, heard that he's getting back :D. that's good.
Even with the number of stars in the sky, it couldn't show how much I missed you.
I will wait :) .

I don't know but nowadays whoever gets too close to me. I will just avoid.
I have no interest in guys nor girls. I am straight, I definitely love guys like Jang.
Maybe it was me who was bored of getting a boyfriend, sacrificing for nothing.
Life is short, left 3years of teenage life to enjoy. Why would I want to get tied down :) .
Therefore, it's a straight rejection. I can even use my toes to think of the answer.
This shows that , I could not be bothered nor would I be replying to nonsense messages.

It was not about me being proud or whatsoever.
The reason why I am like this - guys have some responsibility to hold as well.
As well as I am told not to by my heart and brain.
How can a cell function without its nucleus ?
OR
how could a information which was read by using the genetic code, which specifies the sequence of the amino acid within proteins be formed without its bases and a phosphate?
AT CG would not even exist and I would not even be studying them for 'O' Level.